I watched this short documentary online about this forest in Japan at the base of Mount Fuji where people go to commit suicide! It's the most depressing and disturbing thing ever. I recorded myself after watching the film and talked about how it felt to watch it and how depressed I used to be, and would think about suicide, and now all I care about is preserving my life. I mean, obviously, I have a lot more to live for now then when I was 17-20 years old when I was really depressed and thought I had nothing to live for. My dreams seemed so far-fetched back then. I never thought I could be a filmmaker or actress. I never thought I would have a husband or 3 awesome kids, but here I am, at almost 30, and care more about preserving my life than anything. I want to be there for my children, grandchildren, even great-grandchildren, God willing.
I also did some research online about other cultures and religions and how they view death and the afterlife. I typed up some stuff and I'm going to print it out and keep it in my notebook, for future reference.
And then today, I went past a funeral home not too far from my house and a hearse was pulling out of the lot and a procession of cars was behind it. I started thinking about what it must be like to do that sort of job on a regular basis, like a mortician or funeral home director. I think I'm going to call them this week and ask if I can interview them on camera. I already have my release forms printed out and in my production notebook.
A link to that film I was talking about:
Wikipedia about the Aokigahara Forest
The TV special about the Forest:
Japan's suicide forest
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